Tuesday, August 21, 2007 11:19 PM
i,m sad now = (
I have lousy control over my emotions.
Surprisingly enough. i realize that i,m usually sad when someone close to me is sad. Inversely , I,m glad when someone close to me is glad.
Hmm. thats was reflected when christine was still with us. i could remember my mood rapidly changing everytime something negative happened and she became emo.
( luckily even though i do go through a number of mood swings i still manage to keep my sanity and do whats needed to be done )
Sometimes at night, when i,m alone at home , and its night yes one of those real silent nights. One would start thinking about stuffs.
What kind of stuffs you may ask?
Life , ones morals , decisions , love , goals , purpose?
( Damn i think too much sometimes )
It seems to have a negative impact on me. Cos i end up feeling like some emo shit after i give these matters much thought.
Sadly , i,m not too successful in any of these areas.
Life : i am ok at this.Not too good, not too bad. There are the good days *amen* but there are times where you just feel too shitty to care ( thank god these dont happen too often to me )
Morals : i am a fairly moral person. Dont get me wrong. I,m a lazy person , untidy , irresponsible and in some cases an introvert. However , these arent morals their erm bad habits? I believe in being nice. honest , polite , humble ( thanks gang rui ). Those are good morals ya?
Decisions : i,m pretty bad at these. UNLESS you,re talking about gaming...seriously. ok maybe i make better decisions now. but i,m no where near an A grade when it comes to decisions = (
Love : are you kidding me? my previous (and only) girlfriend hurled vulgarities at me after breaking up with her. The 3 other dates that i,ve been on bored each of those girls to death. I fail horribly at this
Goals : well i have some decent goals. Best guitarist in the world... A1s for everything except Chinese which i,m expecting a B4. Building up my body so i can be cool like Yirun... yep i mean theyre ok goals i guess ( i am NOT being sarcastic well except for maybe the best guitarist in the world part )
Purpose : Well i have a decent purpose in life. i wanna make my friends happy. i wanna make my parents / godparents / stepparents proud. I want to play guitar.
Tadah.. Tomorrow , i shall start blogging about people whom are important to me how they,ve affected my life and stuff.
today was filled with ups and downs. i managed to pull through unscaffed = )