Watashi no nihongo. kakanai , hanasanai ,
Mo tadashii bun ga tsukurenai
Dakedo ... kankaenaindesu.

Watashiwa iitaikotoga iemaksuara
Hai. Daijobu.
Ano hito wa , watashi no mune ni , watashi no kokoro ni , imasu.
Hontoni imasu.
Sore karadesu.

kyou yori ashita hou ga zetai ii

Do you understand that?
If you do , smile = )
If you dont , things will work out. No matter what. So smile anyways = )

This post. Would be dedicated to my teacher and mentor Mrs Tan
Why so?
She helped me get by today.

I started the day out in a bad way.
I wasnt in too much control.
Basically the only form of entertainment was facebook.
Even then , there were drawbacks.

Well i had some heart to heart talk with Mrs Tan.
It helped tremendously. While the problem i,m facing is still existant , at least , maybe. just maybe i,ll be able to deal with it better.
At least i know that i,m no longer melancholistic.

This will all be over in a bout 2-3 weeks time.
I,ll know the result.
I,ll set my direction from there.

Dear Blog

I have decided. Its been almost 4 months now.
I cant keep this to myself anymore.

My obsession. My infatuation. It scares the living hell out of myself.
This matter has been plaguing my mind for too long.

I,m ready.
But the time is not right. Not during this hectic period for everyone.
Once this busy phase of life has passed , it,ll be time for me to take the plunge.
Why a plunge?

I fear for the worst, Losing everything.

What Jarvis says makes a whole lotta sense.
Its time to change for the better.
While it may be fun playing the fool.
This has to stop

wowowowowowow what a day.

Woke up at 11.30 did 1 last round of revising for Hist ppr. Reached school at 2.15
Some minor interaction and then doom time =/
Well it wasnt doom time because one of my stronger topics , War in pacific came out. So ^^ hoho quite happy.

Left school , reached home , showered , grabbed guitar and left for dinner at Cityhall.
Had subway with Xinyi and Yirun. Note to self. I shall try honey oat next time at subway.
Dinner this time round wasnt hyper or anything. But i enjoyed it still.

So... today LCube was packed. There was like this indonesian band with ard 7 ppl.
yea.. Anyway , today we used the middle room.
Guess what. I got the shitty amp. HOWEVER , hehehe its the guitarist. Not the amp.
I felt that my sound today was pretty good.
In fact for sweetchild , although i didnt play well , my sound was just oh so sweet ~
Jamming was fun today. It seems that we got back some of our spunk back today. I was especially glad that i had the time to play guitar today.
So we did a half -assed version of Butter-fly (digimon song) Marunouchi , Sounan and lol The Reason by hoobastank. Yea. Jamming was fun.

SO after jamming mr stress , aka Andrew decided that we should go to raffles place , Boat quay McDonalds for Music Theory. Learnt about Minor scales today.
I had a little chat with Andrew alone. I,m quite bothered by that. I,m not sure what to do. zzzz I need to consult somebody about this.
But another thing which i,m STILL really worried about is the future of the band.
If you,re close enough to me , you should know how much i cherish this band... yea. At the rate things are going , theres gonna be a few splits here and there.

Alright. Enough of the emo stuff.
We thought there was latenight trains ( Last friday of the month )
Thus , we went to the mrt at 12.30 only to realize it was closed...
Well , it was quite a fortunate thing. Cos , We went to Actors!
I like that place. I really got to loosen up today.
All that O level crap...
It was a major form of destress for me.
I wished that we had the chance to perform though. I so sosososososo wanted to perform.
O well , theres always next time. But dang those old guys and mature ladies playing and singing really got my groove going. I guess everyone was kinda high especially Xinyi , Jarvis and I.
I swear. When Jarvis is high , he becomes Gay.
There was this Westerner. A lady. She sang Fly me to the moon pretty well.
But then she became drunk and started screwing around with the mike. It was pretty entertaining to watch though.


Ok. Pray for the best. For Andrew's assignments , Xinyi's project and tests , Yirun's FYP and er... Jarvis's ship? Last but not least. My Os... stupid. This is so uncool. I,m 18 real soon and i,m taking Os...

At approximately oct 26 2007 , 4.20am

Tim discovered the wonders of facebook...

You can actually send vampires to fight people.
How cool is that?

I hate history.
When it comes to History exams , i never fail to get stressed the day before.
Facts , Facts , Facts , more facts.

= /

Its quite pressuring too. I,ve been doing very well for History all year round.
Thus , i,m pressured to maintain that kind of standard for Os.
I,m human too you know. Humans can screw up as well.

I need to be compared and positively affected by stereotypes which enables me to perform better academically.

Dont ask what that means..

F.I.R BANZAI!!!!!!!!!

Welcome to the study wagon.

While i may have changed over the years , some things remain the same.

The most obvious being , i,m still as clumsy as ever.

Science practical.
I was in a hurry to triple check my salt.
Therefore , during the whole 40 mins i spent doing chem , my bunsen burner was left on.
At the end of the paper , i wanted to off the bunsen burner. Instead , i turned the tap the wrong way and my table caught fire. I grabbed my paper , wallet , IC and entry proof before running away. My calculator melted...luckily my pencil case remained unscathed.

Today , i misread something on christine's blog and that could have led to serious consequences.
Luckily , my mouth isnt that big.

But on normal days , i still trip when walking , i still mishandle things. grrrr
Sometimes , it does humor the people around me. But its not too cool.
I mean you manage to impress someone and 3 secs later you trip and nearly fall.
All i can manage is to laugh sheepishly.

Hmm. ok stupid daniel cheong thing.

Well alright. Quite a few things to blog about.

Firstly , its exam stress.
I wont call it stress because compared to many others , what i,m feeling is minimal
However , the feeling of the impending approach of the exams.
Its normal.. Everyone hates it.

Next thing
Tokyo Jihen.
Yes. They are getting to me AGAIN.
First , a few months back , Toumei Ningen.
Now , its Marunouchi Sadistic.
Sounan and Shuraba arent to be neglected either.
I guess its funner when i play it with the people i love.
Not that i dont like the other band or anything..well.
The feeling is hard to describe. You wont understand unless you,re in Skyler itself.

3rd point.
I realized today.
I,ve been deluding myself.
It turns out that i prefer hello panda to pocky.
Dang.
I mean pocky is still awesome and so but hello panda wins.
I feel rather hypocritical. I mean look at my blog. Its titled pocky ~ .
On the other hand , It,d be pretty dumb to change Pocky ~ to Hello Panda ~
Zzzz what should i do.

4th point.
Daniel Cheong.
I,m sick and tired of his song. ( which is really lacking )
I dont like his style. I dont want to play for him.
I dread Tomorrows (laters) performance.
For once , I,m not nervous. I just feel that its a total waste of my time.
I want to get this over with.

No.5 : Animals and Environment.
Here on this blog , I,ll say once and for all. I am pro environment and i love animals.
I hate people who litter. I discourage smoking. ( I cant hate smokers cos my dad and Jarvis smokes. )
I Dislike animal abusers.
I was going to school for sci prac on thurs when i saw a lady wearing a T-shirt which had " Stop Animal Abuse " printed on it. I hope she had a good day.
I,m pretty Anti - China nowadays. By all means , Industrialize but Rapid - Industrialization with no care for the environment is just horrible.
Theyre killing us. The USA is no better. Leader of the free world?
But to give them some credit. At least there are people working towards protecting the environment. China is just too much though , with their fake baby powdered milk and all that toys with lead paint.
Well. Enough criticizing. Hi , if you,re reading my blog. Do me a favor and dont litter k? I mean its not as if i,m asking you to pick up someone elses litter ( if you do that, bravo ).
Xinyi was showing me this petition on saving polar bears. Grr. First it,ll be polar bears. Then artic marine life , Penguins , Snox foxes and leopards , Seals and then the rest of the world..
Cmon.. basic secondary school content. SUSTAINABLE DEVELOPMENT.

Next.
I enjoyed todays jamming. I loved my tone today. As a whole we did only alright though. Of course , i too made some mistakes.
Generally , if i start shifting around and bouncing or balancing on a leg , it probably means that things are going well and that the sound appeals to me.
I was rather happy with Sounan. Its bad to self praise but my guitar solo was like ooooooh <3
Now. The shocking thing was dinner.
We ate pastamania. ( i like that place. kk gogo Carb lovers )
Xinyi you need to eat more. Of course not grow fat la but still , well at least Yirun and i think so. You need to eat more. Remember ? at burger king and you couldnt finish your fries and now you cant finish your pasta.
Well. i strayed a little.
Shocking thing was Jarvis. Wow.
So far , i,ve always known him as a gentle giant. He's always very nice to me and hes like super patient and everything.
But today woo. Some ship in Missisipi ( dunno how to spell ) had problems with steering ( jammed ) and was about to run into some land during low tide.
My goodness he was like scolding the Chief Engineer so badly.
Well , at least hes good at what he does. Cos he sounded like a pro.
THB68 is a hydrohlic fuel used in ships. kk i learnt something = )
Well anyway i hope that stupid ship doesnt give him too many problems.

Ahh, ok i have an exam plan now. Wonder if i,ll stick to it. But for now , it seems like the only thing i plan on doing is going to bed.

Oyasumi.
Dang. i forgot how to write
Go , Roku , Nana , Hachi , Kyuu , Juu ( 5-10 in japanese )
Looks like my Hiragana is rusty. I havent studied for nearly a year..time to get
Volume1 , beginner japanese , by Ebiko Maehara.

Wow. this new skin is cool ~
Science Prac was ok
I,m not overconfident that i,ll do well
But i,ll do ok for sure = )

I always wanted to say this.

" The color of this blog is so rich "

= D

Tomorrow or rather today is gonna be science prac.

Time to morph into a scientist.
Gotta get into the zone.

...what am i talking.

Heres a prediction for my next post

It can go many ways but it,ll more or less be similar to these examples

A) A happy post about how i pwned the paper.
B) An emo post about how i,m useless
C) A post on reflection
D) Random shet.

Well , of course A would be my desired option.
KK
Its scientist time.
Tim the science guy.

Zzzz. i gotta stop doing that.

Home cooked food is supposed to be healthy.
Thats not the case for my dad and stepmom.

I,ve been telling them.
Dont keep frying with so much oil.
Well , its probably because i,ve become MORE health concious now.

Look forward to the end of tomorrows paper.
I,m actually quite glad that i can read japanese.
I stumbled upon something rather interesting. It was written in japanese.

Is it wrong to read a stranger's blog? Especially when i find the contents interesting.
I wonder if strangers read my blog.
Hi! if you,re a stranger and you,re reading my blog. Do tag!! Just say hi or something.
I promise that i,ll be friendly.

Its weird. Sometimes , i,d rather a stranger read my blog than someone close.
Posting about your life on the internet is such a huge insecurity.
Do i do this for the readers? Well , partially.
But sometimes , the wrong people reading ones blog might lead to a lot of problems.

Andrew might kill me if he found out about my URL..

AAARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I,M GONNA DIE.

BECAUSE THERES TOO MUCH T.J TO PLAY.
I CANT STAND IT.
ITS LIKE INVADING MY BRAIN.

PUT THAT ASIDE. THERES STILL F.I.R AND GURREN LAGANN
TRYING TO INVADE MY BRAIN TOO. TOO MANY THINGS I NEED TO PLAY / DO
TOO LITTLE SPACE IN MY HEAD AND TOO LITTLE TIME.

OMGG...
MARUNOUCHI SADISTIC IS SEXY.
SHURUBA IS STYLE
TOUMEI NINGEN IS FUN
SOUNAN IS PASSION
KABUKI IS ENERGY
BLACKOUT IS SHOCKING

AND I LOVE THEM ALL
KK

THIS WILL BE THE CAPS POST. SINCE I,M IN THE CAPS MOOD>~~~
WILL BLOG ABOUT TODAYS EXCITING AIRPORT TRIP WHEN I DEFUSE MYSELF.

and i ask myself... whats so great about japanese music... goodness. what am i thinking.
Its japanese. That alone accounts for something.

i am too envious over certain things.

I am being too obsessive over certain things that it scares myself.

Its dangerous to myself and the people around me.
Sometimes i realize that i,m just hurting myself by carrying on like that.
But then... its also for my sake and everyone elses.

I am glad that i,m greeted by a peaceful void deck.
Hari Raya is over.

That means the noise and all the buzzing about is gone.
I dont hate hari raya. I do enjoy walking the pasar malam
However i despise the constant heated atmosphere.
I like peace.

I am thankful for chatting with Xinyi and Yirun last night.
I got to know them better.
While it did cause me to oversleep and turn up late for er " jamming " today ,
It was also a good method to destress.
Helped organize my thoughts and calm my nerves.

Hari Raya is gone.. the litter is still present.
I know that i shouldnt complain. Instead i could help clear the litter.
= (
I guess that all these are just for show?
But i really do feel that way. At least i know that i dispose of my litter properly.
urrgh. Went down for supper last night.
There were like 15 cockroaches in such a small area.
Horrible sight.

Its just evidence about how dirty that place is.

Tim woke up to a pleasant morning. Clearing his head , he got up and prepared for gym.
It was a long day ahead.

After , packing his essentials into his slingbag , Tim left the house for that 45min long journey to choa chu kang via mrt. It was a new experience for tim , joining the working class on the mrt. The smell of perfume lingered in the train. It made Tim's nose wrinkle a little.

Soon after , the train started to clear. Tim found a seat and proceeded to do a bit of revision for his music theory test which sad to say , he didnt meet expectations. Upon arriving at CCK , Tim was greeted by a grumpy Yirun who had a stomachache. However , 15 minutes in the toilet solved that problem.

After lunch , the duo headed to the gym.
During that 2 hours Tim experienced all sorts of strain on his various muscles.
After finishing his last workout , the 2.4km run , Tim started feeling nauseous. Thankfully the diziness disappeared 10 mins later.

Time was running short and Tim and Yirun said theyre temporary goodbyes.
Time slept throughout the trip back to Paya Lebar.

Grabbing his guitar , Tim left the house for L cube music studios.
He had arrangements to meet Xinyi 1/2 an hour early so that she could get some revision done too as she had forgotten to bring her book.

However , that also meant that Tim and Xinyi got to use the jamming studio a little earlier.
Although no where near perfect , Tim enjoyed the short duos he played with Xinyi on the drums and Himself on guitar.

Soon , the rest of the band filed in one by one.
Tim was rather amazed at the speed Yirun had picked Sounan up.
Although the flaws were plentiful , it was by no means an easy song to play.

If Tim could have graded jamming today , he would have given it a C.
Although he was more than satisfied with his guitar tone , the playing itself didnt go too well.
Everyone had their own screwups here and there. Thus , almost every song that was played had flaws in it.

Perhaps Tim is too much of a perfectionist when it comes to this sort of things.
Even though Tim would have graded jamming a C , he felt more cheerful compared to the previous one.

After jamming , Skyler headed to BK ( again. ) for dinner. Tim started to notice a trend. He himself would order Onion rings for sure. Yirun would mention the word trans fats at least twice. Xinyi would always have problems finishing her food , Jarvis would order the smallest portion and lastly , Andrew would make his *#@*!$ sauce.

Dinner as expected , was enjoyable. Topics ranged from Music theory to Gym to Transfats to Jarvis's work to music related matters and finally christianity. Andrew and Yirun had a lot to say about that one.

Day ended off with 5 people occupying 2 benches in the mrt station , doing a test... the honor student turned out to be Yirun with 95 marks. Tim scored an 89 which was... below expectations. Tim claims that careless mistakes were the cause of the undesirable grade.

Tim enjoyed the train ride home while talking to Andrew.

I SHALL STOP TALKING IN 3RD person.
ok.

Wheeww. i bet i,m gonna have aches all over tomorrow. Speaking of which , the litter downstairs should start to lessen tomorrow.
I pity Yirun. He had a really tiring day.
He did a whole 1 and a half hours of weights ( same as me but the used much heavier weights ) and ran a total of 5.24km
Followed by little to no rest , Jamming and finally theory. Thus , he would have reached home only after 12 and the main reason for my pity , is that he has work at 10am tomorrow. Speaking of which , Xinyi probably has band tomorrow morning too.
May god help revitalise them or something.

For me , I,m glad that i have nothing on in the morning.

I,m moving on to a period in life , where my days are always interesting.
Be it good or bad.

No. I,m no longer stuck at home playing warcraft or practicing guitar
( Note that i still practice. )

These days , i actually leave the house !

I really kinda dislike my left eye contacts.
Why cant you be nice like my right eye contacts and be a good contact lense?
Or perhaps its my left eye thats giving problems..
In that case. Bad Eye !

Today i was heading to Kovan for the Daniel Cheong thing.
I do NOT enjoy the daniel cheong thing. However , i caused quite a bit of inconvinience for david and daniel so .... i,m sorry = /

Anyways. I was on the Bus reading P.S I Love You by Cecelia Ahern.
Its a good book. Or maybe its because i just simply adore love stories.
Back to topic.
I was reading my book when i rubbed my left eye and my contact lens shifted and went into the bottom area of my eye.

2 words.
Ewww and OUCHHH

Thankfully and luckily , the bus that i was in passes by Matthew's house and just nice. It was 1 stop away to his place.

SO , i quickly called him and asked if i could borrow his toilet.
Removed the misplaced Lens but it tore T_T
So i was stuck with a Right eye that was perfectly fine and a blurred left eye. I couldnt remove the lens in the right eye cos i didnt have the proper storage facilities.
Thus , i had to cab back to the optician with 1 eye closed.
Well , replaced my left lens and went for " jamming "

Thats if you can even call that jamming.
I,m saying it now. I want out. Not only do i NOT enjoy this at all , but Daniel , it might not be your fault but the deal was to let the WHOLE band play. Not just me and david.
So now , good job wasting all of Jarvis and Matthew's time.

I wasnt too cool with Vaughn the music instructor. Well, i gotta admit. He knows his stuff. But grrr i,ve never seen a more arrogant instructor..

Dang. I wish i could pullout. I really do. Its taking up too much of my time. The promise of playing in NUS suddenly doesnt seem too attractive either. Especially since the whole band isnt playing.


About what i blogged yesterday. ( yes i can read egyptian )
I,m afraid. What if i,m just deluding myself. Woe to me.

Anyways , its always good to end on a happy note.
I got to eat Muah Chee today = )
And my oh my. Even though i only had a small sample , Gelato is delicious.
Lastle, this short stanza is dedicated to peiwen.

Roses are red
Violets are Blue
How lucky i am
To have a friend like you

Happy birthday Peiwen.~~~

p.s Hopefully all the litter will magic itself away once Hari Raya is over.
Or perhaps it,ll disposed by the Enviromental Protection officers
I must be going mad... for the better or worse? I,m not too sure.
Maybe by going mad i can shred better.

mymymy..
Its still hard to put in left eye contacts.


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These days i,m starting to feel heartache.
Problem is that , these occur randomly in between time and moods.

Perhaps some of christine has rubbed onto me.
It might very well be true. After all , everyone in the band has helped mould my character to what it is now.

Let me use this paragraph to let out my remorse.
I hope that even if you do manage to decipher this "code" , You,ll respect my privacy and stop reading here. Yes , i know the dangers of posting something like this online. However , i feel that a blog is a good avenue to let out my feelings.
It seems that , I,m becoming more and more smitten with her. She occupies my mind during the time i spend awake , be it in my active thoughts or subconciousness.
I long for her. Do not mistake this as lust. My actions and mood are at her mercy.
She affects me even without meaning to. Even by leaving me alone , she affects me.
I want to hold her close and support her. She doesnt realize this. I dont dare to tell her , in fear that i,ll lose a majority of the important things in my life. The odds are against me. Too much is at stake. I wont dare to take the gamble until sufficient evidence points toward my success.
My oh my.. What a weak man you are Tim.

Well , on another note , It seems that i,m becoming more and more concious of our environment.
Here , at Joochiat , Eunos , Hari Raya is at its peak.
Grace be with the muslims. After all , its their period of religious activity. However , dont neglect the environment...Its totally ok to fill the whole place with pasa malam but dispose of your litter properly.

To those reading this , Please dispose of your rubbish properly. No i,ve not become brainwashed by anything. But at least you,re helping everyone out. So er .. no i,m not advertising anything here. But ya. do your part for the environment.

ooh. and er you guys should read Ricky's blog.
kk i know it isnt good to have unknown ppl reading your blog ricky , but your posts are always very interesting

Dear Tim ,

So.. you,re 30 this year. How have you been? Have you been eating well? Maybe put on some weight and muscle?

What about your career.
Did you go to university and get that arts diploma you wanted?

Hows your job like?

Is being a PR manager fun?


Do you still have trouble putting on contact lenses? I hope not = )


What about your life? Is your japanese rusty?

Nippon wa kirei desuka?

How is Robin , Leena and Beez?
Any new additions to the family?


What about mom , dad , godma , godpa and aunty?

Are they in good health? You have to take care of them k?



Have you found a partner in life? Yes? No?

Well , at leasti know that she will have a kind personality and a heart warming smile.


Are you still a noob? How much improvement have you made in your guitar playing?
Speaking of which... Hows Skyler? Are you guys famous?

Is Andrew married to Phoebe?
Is Jarvis an uncle = / ?
How is Xinyi coping with life?
Did Yirun find true love?


Dear Tim... perhaps you,ve finally become a man?

Maybe , you,re able to make better decisions? I hope so.

Perhaps you,ve become a more useful person?

Do you still keep in touch with Hwee Peng? There is still hope in bridging the gap in this family.

Perhaps there is no longer the need to tell those pointless lies about your past?


What about Nic and Vic?

Has Vic become more mature? Hows his guitar going?

Has Nic made his first million? I hope so.


Dear Tim. Are you satisfied with your life?


I await your reply = )

Dear Blog.

Thankfully i have people to talk to about my shitty day today.
I must not take them for granted.

Just imagined if no one cared..
goodness me.

Should i really blog about today, i dont know. A blog is a good way to let out emotions.
Not many people read this blog. Well at least i know that if you,re reading this , you,re trustworthy.

well i,ll do a point form summary.

1) lost wallet ytd.
2) went to replace today, waited for very long.
3) guitar string snapped. Result wasted money on cab and strings
4) wasted band time.
5) sounded like shit.
6) no band dinner (which i look forward to every week)
7) wasted 2 hours in jamming studio.
8) talked to good caring friends.

Thank god for point number 8.
Thank you Xinyi , Matthew and Channie for listening to my crap.
Today would have been much worse if not for you guys.

Matthew thanks for listening to a lot of my shit. You do hear about my crap almost everyday do you? kk you,re an awesome friend. Now that i think about it , it would be sad if you go to poly.

zzz. somehow , even though school has ended, i seem to be running about much more.
I pray for a more relaxed change to my life.
Although there are many others around me , who are much more stressed , I seem to be good at thinking about myself.

I pray that i,ll become more useful to the people around me.

Yet another eventful day.

I,ve been hit by a lot of unexpected things coming my way lately.
Today , was bittersweet.

But before i blog about today, heres the photos of "Beez".





Beez , Robin , Leena


The new stickers = )

Well , i,ll stop here.
I shall blog about what happened today soon. But not now.
In the meantime , i gotta bear in mind , that i,m lucky to have 3 awesome guitars.
God Bless those around me too.

Well. I,m gonna blog about yesterday. Man... what a day.

Day started of when Matthew came over. We were supposed to go have lunch at parkway and then lesson with Beez.

His lesson started at 4.30. We reached parkway around 2.
After having lunch at BK, ( I happen to be eating a lot of BK recently ) we decided to walk around. Well it helps digestion and such.

On a side note , I cant wait for the new Borders to open in parkway. I would really like a good bookstore to be near my place.

Ok. So. We were walking on the 2nd level when suddenly a girl appeared in front of me. Well , it wouldnt be justifying calling her a girl since shes 18. So , a female appeared in front of me.
Our eyes connected for a second and something flashed across my mind.

Yeetien.

Well , lengthy description up there , but it happened all in the span of 1 second. I was dead sure that it was Yeetien. She probably knew it was me too , seeing the way she looked at me.
After that, " err. excuse me " (it was crowded) and we just walked past each other.

Now. That crush i had on her a long time ago is gone. We,ve already progressed to the stage of being friends which dont talk. Just seeing each other online on msn without exchanging any words or batter.

Matthew was questioning me. " Tim , who's that? "
I felt like turning back and saying hi.
I mean there was absolutely no reason not to say hi. Its not like we hated each other or anything. In fact i thought it would be pretty nice to catch up with her. Last i heard was she entering VJC (i am inferior)

Well , thats that. Its just pointless thoughts of mine. But still , i wish we had said hi. Its Almost always cheerful to meet someone on the streets.

An hour later, i met Monkey. We weren't close friends at all. All we did was play basketball together but at least those nods of recognition we exchanged felt good.

So , at 4.00 we arrived at Beez's shop. He was having a student , so we had to wait outside till he was done. During that timespan of 4.00 - 4.30 , i observed his playing , some of the chords that he used and the scales being played.
But , what really caught my attention was this Red Fernandez. Matthew told me that it was Beez's old guitar. Custom made.
It looked vintage but yet wild at the same time. I loved it. so....after his student was done , i walked into the shop and the first thing i said after greeting him was , " Beez. Let me try your Fernandez please "

His reply , " you want ah? i used it for 15 years. I want to give it away. You want it for $80bucks? "

I stood there for a moment trying to process what he had just said.
That expensive of a guitar. For just 80 bucks?
For a moment i couldnt believe my ears. But he repeated his sentence.

Right there i was feeling really awesome. I told him YES. Reserved the guitar , and i,m gonna go collect it today.

So that was something REALLY LUCKY. That happened to me yesterday.

At 6.30 , i went to meet have dinner with my mom at Sushi Tei.
It was a good dinner , but we had some disagreements about me getting that Fernandez. I was pretty sad because it was a really good deal but she wasnt supportive.

Thankfully in the end , even though she still didnt support me getting that Fernandez , she gave me some spare cash saying " here , i dont want you to not eat because of 1 stupid guitar "

Well , you might not be reading this but I love you mom.
Yea , sometimes you can be a real pain. But i still love you.

However , talking about Mothers and Guitars , I really would wish that my mom could see me play at least once. She didnt come down for the cineleisure gig , and she declined my invitation to watch me play at the National Library and NUS.

I really really wish that she would hear ( and see because its always cooler live ) me play.

Well , Its 12.30 now. I have an appointment with Beez at 2pm. I still got some stuff to do so ya..
I thought maybe i,ll end on a brighter note.
Since i got lucky with my guitar , perhaps its time to give some back.
Ok. so i,m gone. I,ll upload the pics once i clean up the guitar.

Yume ni made mita you na sekai de
Arasoi mo naku heiwa ni kurashitai

Mou gaman baka shiterannai yo
Iitai koto wa iwanakucha
Kaerimichi yuugure no basutei
Ochikonda senaka ni bai bai bai
Kimi no fighting pose misenai gao!

Yume ni made mita you na sekai wa
Arasoi mo naku heiwa no nichi jyou
Demo gen jitsu wa hibi to rabu de
Tama ni kuyandari

shiteru sonna rolling days

Kitto uso nante sou kimi o motanai no

All my loving sou janakya yatterannai

Yume ni made mita you na sweet love
Koibitotachi wa kakuregao sagasu no
Demo gen jitsu wa aenai hi ga
Tsuzukinagara mo shin jiteru no lonely days

Oh yeah oh tsumazuitatte
way to go yeah yeah
Dorodoroke rolling star
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I want to live in a world of peace
Without conflict, like the one , I’ve seen in my dreams

I just can’t keep it inside
I’ve gotta say what I wanna say
The bus stop at twilight, on the way home
Saying bye bye bye to the sad backs of others
Your face doesn’t show your fighting pose

A world like the one I’ve seen in dreams
Without conflict, daily peace
But in reality I sometimes worry about
Love and the day to day grind

Those rolling days!

You would never hold a lie, no never
All my loving, without it, I can’t go on

Sweet love like I’ve seen in my dreams
Lovers searching for hidden faces
But in reality the days we can’t meet
Continue on, but I believe lonely days

Oh yeah oh even if you stumble,

way to go, yeah yeah
A muddled rolling star

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Rolling Star by Yui

Yea. Those lyrics mean quite a lot. Perhaps Yui and i are on the same wavelength.

I wish.

Well , these few days , i,ve started to open my eyes a little. Read the lyrics.
The melody gives the setting but the lyrics are the one telling the story.

Yup , lesson 1. Read the lyrics. Understand them. It helps you become a better musician.