i am too envious over certain things.

I am being too obsessive over certain things that it scares myself.

Its dangerous to myself and the people around me.
Sometimes i realize that i,m just hurting myself by carrying on like that.
But then... its also for my sake and everyone elses.

I am glad that i,m greeted by a peaceful void deck.
Hari Raya is over.

That means the noise and all the buzzing about is gone.
I dont hate hari raya. I do enjoy walking the pasar malam
However i despise the constant heated atmosphere.
I like peace.

I am thankful for chatting with Xinyi and Yirun last night.
I got to know them better.
While it did cause me to oversleep and turn up late for er " jamming " today ,
It was also a good method to destress.
Helped organize my thoughts and calm my nerves.

Hari Raya is gone.. the litter is still present.
I know that i shouldnt complain. Instead i could help clear the litter.
= (
I guess that all these are just for show?
But i really do feel that way. At least i know that i dispose of my litter properly.
urrgh. Went down for supper last night.
There were like 15 cockroaches in such a small area.
Horrible sight.

Its just evidence about how dirty that place is.