Theres a problem for everyone.

Some people have anger problems
Some people have problems with members of the opposite sex
Some people have workload problems
Others might be physically or mentally impaired thus causing them problems.

There might be people who cant live w/o girls.
There might be people who cant stand being boring
There might be people who cant stand being ugly.

But i swear i,ve got a disease.
I,m not the only one with the disease.
In fact there are others in the world with this disease too.

My problem..
I,m allergic to myself.

Yes. I,m my problem.
lol
Its not funny.
Its so true that its scary.

what am i ever gonna do...
Listen to YUI.
Shes all like I can change my life.
Yup. Hey at least shes expressing her feelings.
kk no connection. I have nothing to do with Yui except the fact that i enjoy her songs.

Well. Let me teach you how to recognize people with the same problem as me.
Firstly , think back to your secondary school days.
You remember that kid who always got into trouble? the one ALWAYS standing outside the discplinary master's office? Ya thats someone with my problem.

Let me name some people who share the same problem as me.
You remember that guy? Adolf Hitler?
ya he has my problem. Thing is that he got lucky and had enough ability to lead Germany for a while.
You know the previous drummer from Larc'en'ciel? Sakurasomething? The one who went to jail for drugs? Ya thats me too.
You know Yoshiki? and hide? Ya. me again. Well, yoshiki has changed a little from back then.
Did you know that when they started out , X was a notorious band? No livehouse or club wanted them to play. They would always thrash the venue. Get into fights all that.

But the difference between me and yoshiki or hide? I dont have skills.

Having a problem with yourself.
Its a very subtle problem.

You might first think. NO. i,m not the problem. Its that guy. not me.
You might first think. Nah.. its just like that one.
Or you might even be thinking. HEY! i,m doing the right thing k?
Look and so and so. He/she cant do better.
NO.
DONT BE FOOLED.
YOU,RE THE PROBLEM.
ITS YOURSELF.

As to how to cure , this disease, theres no 100% proven cure.
Some people grow outta it.
Well , some people nib the problem in the bud by committing suicide.
But i guess , the most effective way would be to seek help.

Someone. Anyone.
If you have time, gimme a call.
We could talk about stuff.
You could call me to listen to my problems , you could call me to complain about your problems. I,d be glad to listen irregardless of how retarded or severe it might be. You could call to talk about Anything. Guitar , food , your relationship problem , clothing , games , animals , you could even talk to me about computers and all that technical stuff. I,ll try to listen.

If you feel shy about calling we could talk on msn too. If you,re a total stranger who isnt planning on kidnapping me , we could talk. Although i dont think you,ll have my number or msn.

I mean. NO ones gonna leave their phone number on their blog.
If you have rememdies to my problem , please , please , PLEASE let me know of them. Of course i,m not expecting some kinda instant remedy but hey , advice is welcomed with open arms.

Its retarded. i swear. people with my kinda problem.
Who and what i,m becoming poses a problem to myself.
Its either you change what u become or you change yourself.


KK.
Enough gibberish.

You know the song by the Beegees? It goes like this.

I started a joke. Which got the whole world laughing.
Only i didnt see...
That the joke was on me