started yesterday off with band.
My playing is coming along well but my tonguing is still pretty bad i feel.

Went home and slept before meeting Andrew , Xinyi and Phoebe at City hall ; sorry for being late.

Goodness. Things are gonna start to heat up soon.
Grade 5 is coming.

Speaking of heating up , Had thai express.
I was the only one whom had the green chicken curry which was delicious but oh so spicy.
The rest had soft shell crab curry which i guess was cool too.
Talked about stuff and shet.
Xinyi's new phone is cool.
Everyone is seriously changing to sony ericsson.
Makes me wanna join in the crowd too. Poor nokia = (

Went to MPH after and took a look at books.
I wanted to by the book titled " Painting mona lisa " which was full of ACTION , BETRAYAL , ROMANCE , A HAIR RAISING EXPERIENCE , EXCITMENT ON EVERY PAGE.
yea. its cool.

But im still reading " a hopeless romantic "
So = ( i didnt buy it.
Saw some cool books though.
The Mystery Method - Neil Strauss
Think Big and Kick Ass - Donald Trump
I AM RIGHT , YOU ARE WRONG - edward de bono
yea and some pretty interesting others.

So After we seperated , i went back down to get my appletini.
David , Kevin and Matthew were supposed to come over but they didnt so...
Well , the appletini is awesome though. Crazy expensive too.

Had and enjoyable time last night.
Better than rotting at home any day.
Yea but it kinda burns a hole in my wallet too.

So i went over to Matthews today.
we chilled. played guitar and warcraft

But i was feeling insecure again.
Generally , i dont like people from Maris Stella , save a few.
Maybe its just me , but i feel that they are insensitive bastards , well , if i were to generalize.
Quite a number of Marists gonna end up in CJC. Urghh. Hate Marists but Love the school and teachers.

I,m worried about the future.
I,m having a great time in CJC now. My class is awesome and things are good.
I,m afraid that , after reshuffling and all that , i,ll end up in a shitty class , shit happens.
I,m afraid that bad things will occur and my JC life gets ruined.
I guess you can say that i,m afraid of change.


Its also like how i dont feel too good about getting new band members. I do realize that my band members are reading this. But i,m not implying anything.
Its because of the fear that , whats good will get taken away.
I love my class the way it is , I love my band the way it is.
I guess thats why i,m against change.

Yet , its a saying that to be perfect is to change constantly and for the better.
Insecure , insecure , insecure.
Most people have problems fitting into a new environment initially , after time , a huge majority of the above portion start to fit in and become part of the group.
I probably fall into that category.
But its like how everyone is afraid of being alone.

I remember in july.
Xinyi was saying how she feared that she would be all alone in university.
I shan't elaborate.
But i guess its similar to how i,m feeling now.

Putting that aside.
I think its time for me to assume some responsibilty.
Last week , I had the excuse that i couldnt concentrate on anything cos of O level results.
Now i,ve gotten good results and theres no reason for worry.
Its time to start organizing myself again.

I,ve got to find math tuition tomorrow.
I have to organize my school materials tomorrow.
I have to get started on Grade 4 or else i,ll have insufficient time.
I have to get the readings on International History

These 4 tasks would suffice for starters.
I,ve slacked enough