time to sleep
After spilling water on my Literature CA assignment.

A sign perhaps.
But amen. I,ve finally figured the 2nd poem out.

Today or rather..yesterday's jamming was pretty lol.
Music could have been better. But i,m glad to see that everyone put in considerable effort.

So we jammed jam.
lol. I guess its pretty entertaining to play with words.

I slacked for the majority of the day , managing to complete my econs work and managing to analyse and anotate the 2 lit poems i must compare.
The actual essay writing for lit will have to wait till tomorrow though.

I kinda dread monday.
I,m gonna recieve bad news. Cos i didnt make it for Reach Cambridge.]

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after jamming. Went to eat at some japanese restaurant.
had cha soba with tempura assortment.
It was decent.

Honestly. If only japanese food were cheaper.

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So , here i am thinking about that again.
I cant help it.
Being in my room with the lights off and the cool air , i cant help but become emotional.

Hai...
Shant elaborate.
Maybe i,ll go watch a movie tomorrow at www.watch-movies.net or perhaps the one that HT and dev recommended. www.movie6.net

so basically i foresee today to be my downfall.

The prospect of failure never seemed so imminent.

What am i talking about you ask?
I think i blewed it.
My chance to go to cambridge university for 2 weeks.

Todays Essay test was the final round of selection.
5 out of the 10 doing the test would get to go to cambridge.

I thought i was ready. I had put in 3 hours of study by skipping GP and studying during my lunch break.
The names were more or less at my fingertips.
At 3 o clock i assembled outside the library along with the other 9 candidates.

The teachers handed me a slip of paper.
BAM.
I was stunned.
The day before i went to take a look at previous year A level history papers.
I specifically looked through the SEA papers with regards to nationalism questions on nationalism. I figured a question on the Rise of Nationalism in SEA would come out.
In a worse scenario perhaps a comparitive essay on the development of Nationalism.
But damn.
What came out was totally foreign. The following 45mins was just my brain going into overdrive and i wrote down anything that came to my mind.

Pretty screwed up essay i must say.
The only merit? The other candidates were equally stumped.
But still...chances are definitely low. I might not even make it into reserves...

zzzz And THAT girl. Shes gonna rub it in.
So bad.
Shes just been looking for a slight sign of weakness coming from me.
So far i,ve been able to compete with her toe to toe. But she is just so damn aggressive.
If theres one person who would make it into reach cambridge. It would be her.
If i dont get in , it means that the competition is over. She won.

I dont wanna talk about the girl.

I had steamboat at godma's today.
Dua Goh gave me this huge Timeout easter egg
seriously its so huge that. You guys would be like super jealous if you saw it.
Had a good chat with my cousins.
Peng Peng is teaching english ant Nan hua sec school.
Quite interesting to hear her stories seeing that one of my future aspirations is to be a teacher.
The talk also acted as stress relief. It was also good to make casual banter once in a while.

oh. Went to watch step up 2 today with the guys.
Yea. I think it was cool.
It definitely made me feel like dancing.
And Damn. That girl could shake her ass pretty darn well.
I mean it.

yea...not much to say.
Recently my blog posts have been riddled with angst , hatred , killer intent , frustration.

Seriously.. i wonder when it,ll stop.
I didnt tryout for council.
Running an election really appealed to me though.

yea. prepare for shame in front of my class on monday.
To make things worse. People are actually rooting for me on this one and i,m not gonna make it

damn i,m scared. am i really on their level? or is this all just a fluke.
Zero confidence for friday's essay test.
Consequence is dejection.

I lack too many things.

damn frustrating.

One person can ruin the day for you and everything escalates

IIYITVXSELLNIYOLUO

No doubt about it.

peaceout. I made it through 1st round of Reach cambridge O yea.

Out of the initial 40+ that tried.
There are 10 of us left.
I,m going for the 2nd round of selection on monday.
Its gonna be an Essay test.

hohoho. After that , 5 will be left.
Those 5 will get to go to Cambridge University for 2 whole weeks.

My chances? 50% lol

But seriously. Kinda slim. Dunno. Will see how.
The competition is tough.
When the going gets tough , the tough gets going , and i am going for dinner.

Byebye

I misplaced smth special today.
I hope i find it tomorrow.

Reach cambridge selection round 1 over.
Lets see if i make it.

Bogged down by Pre-U sem proj and Econs proj
At least this week is more manageble than the previous.

PE was hell as usual.
But hey , i,m gonna grow stronger.

Wonder when Reach cambridge selection for Econs will begin.
I want to go for the econs one.
I,m only using History as a failsafe.

learnt a new word today
Grandiloquent.
It is a form of speech.
" he speaks in such a grandiloquent style " = he speaks so bombastically and talks so tally that he does not understand himself.

Its a bad thing.

Hmmm. ZZzzz.
Goodnight. I hope i find that missing article tomorrow. Its important.
Dang.

I need a massage.
A good one.
My body is TENSE.

Has to be the combined effects of Crazy PE , stress and late nights and stress and stress.

Hmmm. ooh. i haent done math yet.
But its MATH! = (
I,m an ARTS Student. WE DONT DO MATH.
grrr

Damn.

Whats wrong with me.

I cant give in to laziness , emotions or any sort of human-like feelings now...
But they keep surfacing. Its not like i can help it...

Argh.

I am packed to the max.

I,m killing myself.

Can i ramble?

I need someone to listen to me.

I,m not gonna blog here.

Cos i fear that people would think that i,m just trying to show off.

If u wanna be the kind soul that listens to me.

Hit me up on msn.

Dammit.
I,m no superman

Love this song.

First time i heard it was when my J3 senior Nicholas played it. Damn it was helluva good.
He taught me well. Too bad hes in army now.
Oh well , my current SL Shern Way is good too.



There. In the CJC Christmas performance.

If i,m not wrong , NTU sojourn 2008 played it too.
I should mention the soloist again? Lee Wan Cai

Its dead sexy.
I,m learning the song too ^^
But the techniques aren't there.

Soon. soon. i,ll play it like them.

Hi I,m Tim.

I,m becoming a machine.
I have let myself down.
My output is NOT looking good.
Sleeping in class does not constitute a model student.

I,m pretty disappointed that my name wasn't shortlisted for the
Reach Cambridge programme for History.
I think that the main contributor is my lack of attentiveness in class and lectures.

Its alright. I,m gonna try for it anyway.
I hope i do get shortlisted for the Reach cambridge programme for Econs though.

I am going to try for the Pre-U Seminar tomorrow.
I have to make a presentation. About the dumbest topic in the world.
My presentation has to be good.
Wish me luck. There are only 25 slots for each school. 15 slots have already been taken in CJC.

I,ll be playing in the upcoming Con Fuoco concert by CJC band in May.
I,m glad that my conductor allowed me to play.
So many things happening in May...

Pre-U Seminar ( if i get in ) , Con fuoco , Skyler Gig ( if we,re going )
Work. work. work.

I find it really degrading.
That when people think of me , they think of 2 things.
Eating biscuits in class and sleeping.

Urggh.
I,m off to prepare for tomorrow's presentation.
Doesnt help that they only gave us 2 days to prepare for it.

i,m feeling depressed.

Its all because of the occurence that happened yesterday.
Both parties didnt intend for it to happen.
But it did anyway.

Now , i feel distant.
And when that happens , i feel like the driving force that keeps me going is gone.
i understand that. its not your duty to make me feel good.
But i,ve become reliant. Perhaps too reliant.

Its becoming a drug