so basically i foresee today to be my downfall.

The prospect of failure never seemed so imminent.

What am i talking about you ask?
I think i blewed it.
My chance to go to cambridge university for 2 weeks.

Todays Essay test was the final round of selection.
5 out of the 10 doing the test would get to go to cambridge.

I thought i was ready. I had put in 3 hours of study by skipping GP and studying during my lunch break.
The names were more or less at my fingertips.
At 3 o clock i assembled outside the library along with the other 9 candidates.

The teachers handed me a slip of paper.
BAM.
I was stunned.
The day before i went to take a look at previous year A level history papers.
I specifically looked through the SEA papers with regards to nationalism questions on nationalism. I figured a question on the Rise of Nationalism in SEA would come out.
In a worse scenario perhaps a comparitive essay on the development of Nationalism.
But damn.
What came out was totally foreign. The following 45mins was just my brain going into overdrive and i wrote down anything that came to my mind.

Pretty screwed up essay i must say.
The only merit? The other candidates were equally stumped.
But still...chances are definitely low. I might not even make it into reserves...

zzzz And THAT girl. Shes gonna rub it in.
So bad.
Shes just been looking for a slight sign of weakness coming from me.
So far i,ve been able to compete with her toe to toe. But she is just so damn aggressive.
If theres one person who would make it into reach cambridge. It would be her.
If i dont get in , it means that the competition is over. She won.

I dont wanna talk about the girl.

I had steamboat at godma's today.
Dua Goh gave me this huge Timeout easter egg
seriously its so huge that. You guys would be like super jealous if you saw it.
Had a good chat with my cousins.
Peng Peng is teaching english ant Nan hua sec school.
Quite interesting to hear her stories seeing that one of my future aspirations is to be a teacher.
The talk also acted as stress relief. It was also good to make casual banter once in a while.

oh. Went to watch step up 2 today with the guys.
Yea. I think it was cool.
It definitely made me feel like dancing.
And Damn. That girl could shake her ass pretty darn well.
I mean it.

yea...not much to say.
Recently my blog posts have been riddled with angst , hatred , killer intent , frustration.

Seriously.. i wonder when it,ll stop.
I didnt tryout for council.
Running an election really appealed to me though.

yea. prepare for shame in front of my class on monday.
To make things worse. People are actually rooting for me on this one and i,m not gonna make it