horrible day.

I woke up with a cold and trudged to band
Then , Shern Way and Nicholas gotta ruin my day for me.

Shern Way is my SL , Nicholas was the previous SL before he passed the role to Shern way.
They were my close friends in band.
We always hung out together after band. The 3 of us.

Then today. Nicholas screws me over.
" your playing sucks "
" yea i know. "
" Why havent you been practising? "
" Sorry man. I,ve been busy. "
" Busy? Its only been the first 2 mnths of school! What could you have? "
" Er. stuff. Work. "
" What kind of work? "
" Look Nic. I,m not slacking around. I,ve really been busy I,ve got stuff. I,m going for Pre-U sem"
" Wtf is pre-u sem? All it does is look good on your cert."
" And isnt that a good thing? "
" Look. Trust me. I,ve been through JC. All thats important is Academic and CCA. Whats this Pre-U sem shit? Its all useless. Just get good grades and have a good CCA. You,ll get into Uni. Why bother with all this other nonsense. "


Damn you Nicholas. You,re an awesome teacher. Yes a strict teacher. But a great teacher nonetheless. You,re a great player as well. But Today Nic. Today my respect for you drops like hell. I doubt i,ll be half the Saxophonist that you are. However. Get real. Do some self reflection before you start making fallacies like that.

What did you get for A levels Nic? SHIT. You got SHIT.
You were under the "Very good" list for SSO auditions. But you screwed up ur chance and didnt get in.
You can lecture me all you want about shitty playing.
But DAMN. Who are YOU to lecture me about my life. When urs is so screwed up.

Shern Way too.
"Band! Look. Discipline has been really bad. I dont care if you have some Pre-U sem or whatever , you STILL need to turn up"

Idiot. We were friends man. Not just a section mate kind of relationship.
Whats with you TARGETTING me like that in front of the whole band.
Maybe , if your measure of success is being a good saxophone player , kudos to you because, you,ve made it.

But damn. get real. Saxophone playing is for leisure. Dont turn it into a chore.
I dunno bout you. But for me, theres no way i,d grow up to play saxophone as an occupation.
For the record. Shern Way and Nic. I really wish i had the ability to say all these in your face but still. You guys are the boss in band. Nothing i can do. Wake up.

You may be the saxophone soloist and all that. But. In the end , if your grades suck.
What good will that do?