i,m gonna try this new method of blogging.
I,ll immerse myself in the song playing and blog in accordance to the melody and lyrics.

The past few days have been hectic.
Emotions have been on the edge.

Monday to Friday. I,ve been returning home after 7.
I,ve gotten over the running incident.

Some form of melancholy has managed to etch its way into me.
Paranoia has gotten hold of me.

Sometimes i feel that i,m a defect.
If my body is the machine ,
and my mind is the system ,
my heart is the error.

Sitting alone in the cafe today,
I wondered. Why the only company i had was my shadow.
I felt at ease.
But my mind ridiculed my action.
This occurence happened yesterday too.
Isolation.
I went to coffee bean to do my Lit essay alone.
The smell of cinnamon coffee was semi-sufficient in taming my impatience.

Constant pressure. The urge to evolve , unfold.
But my body does not comply.
The threads of relationship that bind all of us together.
Some are loosening when i want them taut.
Others are tightening to the verge of snapping.

Do you understand how i feel?
I failed the History Test that we took 1 month ago.
In fact , i was second from the bottom.
How can this be? I,m supposed to be better than the rest.
The effects are starting to show.
Ignorance is my virus.

I marvel at the power of my mind.
Grave , Solemn thoughts have enabled me to trick my heart
into feeling melancholy.
The human brain is a monster indeed.

Failure in academic aspects.
Fret not. This is mere random error.
It wont happen again.
On the condition that i dont lose my mind.
Where does the arrow of fate point me to?
Will i make it?

Stay a while and maybe then you,ll see.
A different side of me.