Today was the first day of the new term. I saw many familiar faces. Marco with his hippie jeans. Leane with her silky hair. Finally the holidays had ended. After all that had happened 2 weeks ago. That event which still hung on to me in shame. It seemed like everyone would remember it for eternity. That moment marked a turning point in my social life. Still, i tried to smile remembering the friends that brought happiness into my colorless world. For a moment, i just wanted to revisit the old days. the group hugs, the pretend fights. But now all johnny did was spend time with her. He talked only of her luscious lips. Whenever we went out together, I would be left at one corner. I wanted to squirm whenever i saw them kiss. I felt like i wasnt a part of them anymore. One other old friend was Sandra. I admired her attitude of work in play and play in work. It made her become that scholar that she was. I couldnt think of anyone even more special than her when it came to grades. Funny she was horrible in all other aspects of life. Its as if shes only able to study. The only one in my eyes who was still one of us had to be Vic. I wonder if i,ll ever obtain my goal of starting a business with him, marrying a beautiful wife and starting a family of 4. If i had a daughter, i,d name her Angela. A son, Michealangelo. Dont talk about marriage. I am still too young for that. I wonder if i can even get into a romantic relationship at the age of 15. Nevertheless i have my golden retriever, pixie. I love playing fetch with her. Still , pixie alone cant keep me company for the rest of my life. i cant help but wonder what the future holds. I stare into blank space at night. Pixie snuggles up to me her pretty furcoat. She licks my face, I grasp at that shooting star, wishing that one day, it'll be mine.

Love is nothing more than an illusion.