I have to let it out before it consumes me.

Why do i have to keep torturing myself like that?
By doing nothing, i,m causing internal harm to myself...

Yet, i dont dare to take the giant leap to a different future.
The grass may be greener on the other side but theres a high change i wouldnt make it and if i miss and fall,
Its all over.

Perhaps thats why i,m holding back.
But its straining to come out.

What would you do if you were in my shoes?
A coin toss between gaining everything? or losing it all.
Dare to stepup to the challenge?