i,m seeking greater refuge in livejournal now. With greater "publicity" my blog becomes a constriction for me. I do not wish to have to turn this 1 year of memories into scripted junk. Yet, one should know that with the accesibility of the internet, almost anybody could read my deepest, most heartfelt feelings. Its to the extent where i cant blog about how i truly feel about certain matters without affecting my social life , which in turn affects my mental well-being.

Ah yes. While i leave a certain portion of my discourse to the wonders of friend filter which makes LJ so appealing, there are some stuff which can be publicized. Yes. To a certain extent regarding certain members, this blog of mine allows me to get some relief in blogging out my emotions. Well , at least some of them.

I must admit. So far, so far, so far, Mid-years have been a pleasant surprise.
Bs for my Math and Econs.
An S for chinese and
my history teachers Mr.Rajoo and Ms.Teo have given me positive and encouraging feedback.
While My chinese may be a subpass, 41/100 is still a subpass and it still renders me eligible for uni education. Furthermore, the Chinese Midyear paper was especially difficult and tricky. Admittedly, even the chinese teachers agreed that it was rather challenging.
Of course, i know better than to judge my chinese which is very prone to failure but for now, Rejoice!

At this rate, i would be packing my bags really soon.
Yet, 1 obstacle lies in front of me.
I truly believe that it shouldnt be taken lightly and that there is huge potential for me to screw-up.
Oh yes. The dreadful literature paper.
My last H2 subject. The one which i might S or E.
Terrible. It doesn't help that My strength was turned into my weakness. Othello. Or rather, my dear stomach. How could you betray me.
A C would suffice. It really would.
But can i obtain that C? Oh goodness gracious me.
Doesnt it suck to know that you screwed up?

It doesnt help that I,m only recieving the Lit paper on the last period of Thursday.
They are going to put me through so much mental torture. Imagine. If i get my hopes too high.
When i take my script and i see an S.

My god. Heaven and Hell would invert and become each others reverse.
Oh did i mention that i get back GP results tomorrow?
Lets see how i do.
But srsly. Its Lit.
Its stupid. Dumb system. Cmon i,m going for History. Why do i even need to bother about lit...