people usually have this "new years post" on their blogs.
I dont feel like following the trend because i feel that by doing so, i'm just being like everyone else.
Guess that means that i'm trying to assert my individuality and uniqueness.
Honestly speaking, i've always thought that i'm better than others. I always think that i'm special. Like the chosen one in some Lord of the Rings movie or smth.
Like, "if its me. I can do it."
I don't think that will ever change.
In reality, that probably isn't true but you see, its a conflict between brain and heart. A rationale evaluation makes it clear that i'm not this glorified one or something. But my heart doesn't admit it. Or is it the other way round. I'm not so sure myself.

Right, anyway, before i digressed, transition from 09 to 10 has seen me growing. Physically, psychologically, mentally but most importantly, morally. I'm glad to see growth. Yup.

Nevertheless, 2010 remains a year of uncertainty. Unlike 2009, my friends remained and we moved as a class up. My regular contacts were still my regular contacts. Although it may have been A level year, but everyone had everyone (Not a BNW reference) so it was ok. 2010, its a fresh start again. As brilliant as i like to think i am, I'm adverse to change. I'm quite scared of new beginnings. Like i don't know what to expect. Whether i am going to satisfy (Not a freaking BNW reference) or not. Unsure of my course of action, because i like to plan my moves. I always plan. Gonna leave you guys hanging like that. No closure to this post because i don't need any closure at the start of the year.

For readers who do not know what BNW stands for, it stands for Brave New World, a novel written by Aldous Huxley. Its a dystopian text. On the other hand, if you don't know what BNW is, there is a chance you won't understand the meaning of Dystopian text. In that case, i've provided you with enough info to google and you can find out.