Its hard to advance and hard to face life, when you know that theres such a huge emotional blockade in front of you. I try and i try so hard to put aside this issue, to convince myself that 2+2 is not for but in fact 5.

Even then, you can't run from the truth.
Its just too painful sometimes.
What can i say, after all this while, It's still fucking my mind.

Never liked the feeling of going back to army.
Never did and probably never will.
I'm just glad that i was able to meet Nat for a short while today.
That and the fact that i'll be able to come out for a short while tomorrow..

I have to worry about many things in life. One of the biggest, being National Service.
Not commenting on anything so that i don't violate any rules or service code.
Oh Blasphemy.
Not surprsingly, today, i was introduced to a new level of stupidity that i thought only existed in the minds of fictional characters.
Apparently not. What a wonderful world. Full of surprises = )