Its hard to advance and hard to face life, when you know that theres such a huge emotional blockade in front of you. I try and i try so hard to put aside this issue, to convince myself that 2+2 is not for but in fact 5.

Even then, you can't run from the truth.
Its just too painful sometimes.
What can i say, after all this while, It's still fucking my mind.

Never liked the feeling of going back to army.
Never did and probably never will.
I'm just glad that i was able to meet Nat for a short while today.
That and the fact that i'll be able to come out for a short while tomorrow..

I have to worry about many things in life. One of the biggest, being National Service.
Not commenting on anything so that i don't violate any rules or service code.
Oh Blasphemy.
Not surprsingly, today, i was introduced to a new level of stupidity that i thought only existed in the minds of fictional characters.
Apparently not. What a wonderful world. Full of surprises = )

The truth is finally out in the open.

Things are definitely gonna be a little different.

I've mentioned countless times, that i'm afraid of change.

But screw it. Change is not just a physical thing. It may also be a mindset, an attitude or maybe just a different environment in a same one.

But the thing is that, despite all the change going on in this world, the most important things still remain the same.

Technology has advanced but families are still close and loving as they were 100 years ago.

Change can happen. But the most important things always remain the same.

The discovery of hidden musical talent in a girl suddenly makes her so much more attractive than before.

so the other day i was having a talk with matthew and he was like

" Its how you play the cards that you're dealt " <-- reference to life (not poker. although it applies there too)

I totally agree. In life its very much how you play your cards, handle the situation all that ya know.
But we have to understand that not everyone has an equal amount of cards in life.
Take the number of cards to be the number of opportunities and the type of cards to be your inherent qualities.

Yea, if you're really that good, you could play a 3 of diamonds and beat an Ace but still, its always better to have more cards as well as the high quality ones when it comes to this.

If only, daily training in army was as simple as

Running 4km
Doing 200 pushups
Doing 20 pullups
and 100 situps

If only it was that simple...

Yea suck it arsenal >= )

Performances for the Grammy Awards were great!!!
I didnt really bother about the Awards themselves but the performances were eye opening.

The best perf on that night i think was by lady gaga and elton john brilliant!
Notable performances by Beyonce, she has a great voice as well as the Black Eyed Peas. Go check it out!

Sadly, while Taylor Swift got the 2nd most number of Awards, her perfomance on that day didn't live up to expectations, vastly falling behind the shows put up by Beyonce and Gaga.

ok. frankly speaking, im damn sian.

Its like you hit the point where you know its the end of the road and you gotta do something.

Its like one day in 1985 the Russians were like. O shet..we're fucked.
and then what do you do. You don't feel good bowing down to the US for help but you dont wanna continue living in a shithole.

Thats why Remy, Communism never pays.
I've discussed it many times and the best possible scenario is democratic absolutism (invented the word by myself) what you want is the complete opposite of Machiavellian rule through fear, but rather rule through love. Of course, with you as the supreme ruler.
Works the best. Power and Respect.

Notice however, that what i'm describing here is eerily similar to whats going on in BNW. except of course you can argue that BNW i coercion through brainwash. Whatever. Everybody's happy Nowadays


Well, im not. Not really,

In latest news, former Malaysian prime minister mahathir claimed that "9/11 was staged" at a general conference for the Support of Al-Quds to aid the Palestinians. He commented that the 9/11 attacks “But whether real or staged" "have served the United States and Western countries well. They have an excuse to mount attacks on the Muslim world”. Clearly, dismissing the number of deaths on that day, the billions lost as well as the millions who cried.

A level history students, Mahathir also talks about how " the Palestinians’ claim on their land in West Asia which he said was based on legitimate grounds." and that ''one of the greatest injustices done was to take Palestinian land to give to the Jews to create the state of Israel." He may be right, he may be wrong. That we have either memorized or learnt, is hightly debatable. This just goes to show how limited his sphere of thought is. Understandably, he was speaking at a pro palestinian conference but, he is blaming the israelites of today on the actions of their ancestors and obviously, by supporting one side or another, he is advocating the complete annihalation of the other since instead of searching for peaceful solutions, he instead returns to legitimacy based on roots. In other words, he is not searching for a peaceful solution but the triumph of Islam in the middle east. How irresponsible of him, as a politician in a country which is majority Islam. Does he not realize the effect of his words on his followers?

Like, Israel, Singapore is the Israel of SEA. Like Israel, we were goverened by the British and given indigenous land. Now what.. yo dudes. Remy, Ivan Jere,Mark Jessica. We gonna go to war on 2011 if you know what i mean..

Perhaps the most disturbing thing, is that Mahathir even said that ''If they can make Avatar, they can make anything.'' like wtf does that have to do with Avatar... also, not surprising is the absence of any disapproval towards the Islamic extremists bombing the world.

Full article can be found here http://news.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne%2BNews/Malaysia/Story/A1Story20100121-193339.html

Oh btw, if you read the article about Obama not implementing solutions such as healthcare and guantanamo bay, Obama's administration lost a seat to the Republicans in Massachusetts (you know, MIT) just yesterday resulting in Republicans breaking the 40th seat barrier to have 41 seats in congress, thus making it harder to pass bills and such. Was gonna blog about this and how ridiculous republicans and democrats are but i already blogged about an even bigger fool so i'll just stop here.

HMm. I had a good morning = )

cant freakin sleep. I woke up at 4am and i just can't get back to sleep... work in 2 hours. dammit. = (

So i was reading about waistline tips when it came to bodybuilding when it somehow came to this.
http://yu-kym.blogspot.com/
I was thinking initially, what a slut. I mean she does have topless (private's not shown) photos online but talks way too much about female sexuality. Like, you'd think you would like to read a woman talk about her vagina but this is just too much info that it becomes scary and possibly disturbing.

Rated : M18+
View at your own discretion

Hi. Boyfriend available.

Has fluctuating self esteem
Self proclaimed good looks
Highest level of education achieved GCE "O" level
Proficient at internet games
Enjoys martial arts and basketball
Will not cheat on you
Enjoys soppy movies, Epic films and Comedies
Plays the guitar
Cooks decent chinese cuisine, soups and pasta
Will listen to you drone about whatever
Will hold you when you cry
Will try to leave good impression with parents.

Duration of relationship, 2 weeks.

Any takers?

i feel like Pip. except i aint weak like that lil noob, and i am probably way more handsome too.

Hi guys. I am a very conflicted individual. Maybe its just myself.

I dread the day where i may finally have to do something about it

Will blog about Remy and his unfortunate perception of lies and the world.
However, i'm not going to discuss that here.
Instead, i would like to talk about what i shall now term as "The Unorthodox theorem"
Remy, the said theorem may apply to you or it may not. Its hard to determine.
Not an accusation but its me critiquing an increasingly common trend.

The Unorthodox Theorem is a critique on people who act in an unorthodox manner, so as to assert their uniqueness.
Oh no.. i have just triggered off a philosophical web. You the reader may think "what defines unique and what doesnt then?" "Haven't you fallen into the trap of the Unorthodox theorem by in fact, writing about the theorem itself?" The questions go on and on.
Not a solid theory, but good for explaining cases which fit in the particular criteria.

Basically, people try to prove that they are "special" or assert their "identity" through being the unorthodox one. Because (i hesitate to use this word) being a rebel, shows unconformity and what better way than not conforming to the masses to assert one's uniqueness.
For the sake of example, i will talk about Remy. Remy believes that the world revolves around lies (although now he believes in a mixture of truth and lies Tim&Trini combo ftw) I'm not saying that Remy is trying to be different. In fact, he approaches the topic from a very rational point of view. However, assuming circumstances were different, Remy could very well have pulled together a few sensibile arguments and since the arguments are somewhat sensible, assert his individuality in the sense that he is not like those fools who believe that truth and love is the way that the world functions.

This escalates into the initial idea, being blownup to his own personal Gospel truth ( see the use of language where i present contrasting imagery gospel and remy)

This "Unorthodox Rule" applies to pop culture as well. In truth, i embrace all music. I do not appreciate screamo like matthew does, but my tastes stretch from metal, rock, to mellower stuff like blues and jazz, to pop and even to stuff like disney. However, there are a certain group who denounce good old pop like lady gaga, Britney, Beyonce, Taylor Swift (yaya u may call her country whatever..) and instead claim that only indie is worth listening to.
I dont mean that indie sucks. The Kills rock! (not the killers although they rock too) but their support for indie has resulted in a blinding of their sonic-palette and in the end, it becomes more of an insistence that indie beats all, rather than true preference.

It doesn't end there.
But my examples end here.
I'm presenting to you a half baked theory which i myself am guilty of falling prey to.
Nevertheless, you understand that i express some discontent towards such treatment of things. Like, rather be "Real". Then again...does being "real" really make you "real" ?(i feel really stupid constructing such a sentence. If anyone can provide me with better phrasing i would be glad to acknowledge your sentence constructing skills) or is it just another trend?

PS. If anyone has a picture of JakeSully on the Toruk (badass dragon) I'd like that please = )

Some people are constants. Lets call them enforcers
I am not a constant. My behaviour changes with those around me.
Its true. I believe that this applies to everybody but to varying degrees.

However, for my case, the idea is pretty applicable.
Some people bring out the best in me.
When i'm with Trini, we engage in emotional,moral and intellectual discussion
When i'm with Annabelle, we have opiniated discussions (not that its not intellecutal ana )
When i hang with Remy, talk goes down to Practical and sometimes Radical discussion. Freedom of thought although not very moral at times.
When i'm with Matthew. We talk about shit. Sadly its true. But its ok. talking about shit is fun.

Trini, Anna, Remy doesnt mean i don't have fun with you guys.

But surprisingly, the people that i don't hang with often bring out rather good qualities in me.
I don't talk to Xinyi much but when i do, i feel humbled.
I don't talk to jere much (nowadays) but when i do, i feel at ease.
Sad to say, there are some people however, that bring out the worse in me.
Some people make my curse, others make me hate.
Think about it, does it apply to you?
Who brings out the best in you?

Work is tiring. Not the work itself, but rather the need to wakeup at 5.30am everyday so that i won't be late. SPH has strict terms about latecoming and breach of contract, so i'm sorry heidi. I will definitely finish reading your paper by tomorrow.

About work. Call it moonlighting whatever. But anyone needs a business consultant?
With my current occupation, it becomes inevitable that i read the paper from cover to cover daily.
That being said, since i now read the papers (not browse through literally read every single page and article) daily, and i'm working for a business paper, i can foresee that my blog content will be a little more business focused.

Today's news, China becomes the top exporter of goods worldwide.
In addition, the dow jones average took a plunge this week so investors are approaching with caution.

Ok. That will be all for today.


Eiwa is within me.


I am Omatikahya bitches.

was gonna blog about jihad rehab, beyonce and gaga.
was gonna be a really engaging post where i would be "in yo face"
and give you my honest opinion (not that you need to care about what i think) on these things.

Butttt i'm lazy.
Work at SPH starts at 6.45am
Yea. Tough stuff.
Night.

yea screw this. i'm tired and my head hurts.

Actually, come to think of it. I think that people like heidi,sherrie and jessica goh maybe even remy(i'm not so sure about that because remy you don't show your philosophical side much. You are more of a practical boy but i will give you the benefit of the doubt) would have thought of the same thing or somewhat similar answers although probably expressed in a different way.

What does that mean? Because the students from Oxford couldnt even grasp the concept that quickly.

CJC > Oxford?
I hardly doubt so. Surely i must be overestimating myself. Or am i missing something here.

holy shit. I have numerous lectures from cambridge and oxford. Yea. Full downloadable lectures where professors really talk and teach. Not just cambridge and Oxford but even

I may be shooting my mouth off here, but i seem to be thinking at the same level as the professor.

Yes, flame me on my tagboard. But i was quite surprised when she posed some problems and questions and my "answers" were spot on. (was a lecture on philosophy)
shall we discuss?

Dear friends.
I have been hired by Singapore Press Holdings for a month.
My workplace is at Tanjong Pagar.
Yep. Tanjong Pagar business district corporate high = )
Eat that jessica goh >=)

hi guys. Wanna see some cleavage?



Yes =) cleavage. But srsly, my whole post from now onwards is gonna be based on the video embedded. So if you're gonna continue reading, i srsly suggest that you watch the video first. Remy will have stuff to say about what i write.

Firstly, i'd like to commend the true hero of this video. The one person that made the most sense and carried out everything to near perfection. The Cop. Props to you man. Kinda nice to see a good cop in America.

So.. you've seen the video. Whos right? whos wrong?
Since we're all educated, i'm sure you'd agree with me when i say that the preacher is an inadequate representation of christianity and that the 2 girls and the rest out there were faggots.

The preacher, in my opinion, is an improper representation of christianity just like how the Taliban and Al Qaeda are inappropriate representations of Islam. I'd like to say that firstly, if he chooses to follow the bible down to every single detail, he would have broken a tone of the bible's rules. (The reason i know this is because i am reading the book that Remy gave me last christmas) Did you know that the bible does not condone "speech zones"? At the start of the vid, the Cop told the preacher to get off the pavement and the preacher did. Does that mean that the preacher is submitting to the rules of man over the rule written by god? If that is so then the preacher has just ignored the word of god.
Even then, look at what the preacher is wearing! Did you know that the bible (thanks remy for the book) does not condone the wearing of clothing made up of mixed fibres? Example, cotton + linen = going against the bible. I am pretty sure that the shirt he is wearing isn't 100% cotton. He's breaking the rules.
Since he says that "Women should submit" even after the girl questioned him about women being abused by husbands to the point of death, it is clear that he does not intepret the bible in the context of the 21st century. Since he is taking the teachings of the bible as an absolute, he is committing a mortal sin by wearing the clothes that he is wearing.
After all, from his point of view, the rules of god are equal and he must NOT, take preferential treatment of one rule over another.
I am disappointed that the mindlessness of some religious zealots pervert christianity in such a way.

So..were the girls right? I can understand their annoyance at the preacher. I am rather disgusted at him too. But in my opinion, they have demonstrated a sign of immaturity and unclear thinking. No i'm not gay. But srsly,which guy wouldnt like tits being flashed in their face. O wait that preacher lol. Ok. Which normal guy wouldn't like tits being flashed in their face.. Regardless of that, while those girls may think that they are being liberal by flashing their cleavage, which isn't all that sexy in my opinion, they are degrading themselves as a response to someone equally if not more disgusting. Its like, bringing yourself down to that kinda level if you get what i mean. College students.. really. Like if you had more sense, you would say, "screw you and your warped religion" and just walk away. Giving a faggot attention is just gonna breed more faggotish action.

In conclusion, i see a full circle going on down here. The attention these stupid kids give to the man, breeds his warped sense of religious righteousness which as a result attracts even more haters. If no one pays any of them attention, they won't even have the incentive to do such things.

You know, actually, on second thought, the girl's response may be due to the perversion of something she values greatly. I'm not trying to imply anything, but i can just imagine girls like jessica (goh) reacting to guys like these. I'm not saying that she would show her cleavage but i dunno, she may get violent. The idea is that i'm not suprised that women get so provoked and it may not be their fault at all that they do.

Inspired by Ng huimin. She did this little thing on facebook. Kinda cool. I'm gonna try and do one myself. Oh btw the answers to the 2nd last post are jere,nat,dora and tara = )

people usually have this "new years post" on their blogs.
I dont feel like following the trend because i feel that by doing so, i'm just being like everyone else.
Guess that means that i'm trying to assert my individuality and uniqueness.
Honestly speaking, i've always thought that i'm better than others. I always think that i'm special. Like the chosen one in some Lord of the Rings movie or smth.
Like, "if its me. I can do it."
I don't think that will ever change.
In reality, that probably isn't true but you see, its a conflict between brain and heart. A rationale evaluation makes it clear that i'm not this glorified one or something. But my heart doesn't admit it. Or is it the other way round. I'm not so sure myself.

Right, anyway, before i digressed, transition from 09 to 10 has seen me growing. Physically, psychologically, mentally but most importantly, morally. I'm glad to see growth. Yup.

Nevertheless, 2010 remains a year of uncertainty. Unlike 2009, my friends remained and we moved as a class up. My regular contacts were still my regular contacts. Although it may have been A level year, but everyone had everyone (Not a BNW reference) so it was ok. 2010, its a fresh start again. As brilliant as i like to think i am, I'm adverse to change. I'm quite scared of new beginnings. Like i don't know what to expect. Whether i am going to satisfy (Not a freaking BNW reference) or not. Unsure of my course of action, because i like to plan my moves. I always plan. Gonna leave you guys hanging like that. No closure to this post because i don't need any closure at the start of the year.

For readers who do not know what BNW stands for, it stands for Brave New World, a novel written by Aldous Huxley. Its a dystopian text. On the other hand, if you don't know what BNW is, there is a chance you won't understand the meaning of Dystopian text. In that case, i've provided you with enough info to google and you can find out.

ok. not feeling as screwed up as i was earlier. But my shoulder's still ache. Yes..sign of weakness.

Anyway, i always wanted to try one of these. You know how on other people's blogs they always say smth like. hmmm. something like this for example.

"Anyway, i'm just hoping that you'll forgive me for what i've done. Yes i'm talking to you. You know who you are. I'm not going to run away this time and i'll face the consequences like a man."

Yes. Take that for example. The emo-kid's blogpost. Or.. maybe something like this.

"KNN i'm so fucking pissed. Thanks ok? I can't believe that some people who call themselves my friends can so easily betray me. YES . YOU. You know who you are. If you're still reading this, i am no longer friends with you."

That one would be , i dunno.. the conflicted kid's blog post?
But the point is, i want to try that "you know who you are" thing. Wonder if the person/s that i'm addressing actually gets it, and hopefully it does not ensare anyone else.

Anyway, i certainly do miss some people from school. Honestly speaking, being stuck at home all day is really draining at times. Ironic isn't it. I'm not supposed to be tired from rest. As i was saying, those guys i miss, those guys were fun. Yes, hopefully you're reading this now. You know who you are.

And...if you really do know you are, leave a tag. Anyone else, feel free to make guesses. Answer will be revealed in my next post.

Speaking of which, i'm surprised that i've actually been able to continue this blog for 3 years! kudos to me. Of course, if you look at Xinyi's one, shes been going steady for about six...

this post aint gonna be no "intellectual discussion"
man...i feel fucked up. maybe its my nose. my food. the shoulder ache. the fact that i'm doing nothing with my life.

I shouldnt complain really. A level period was way more screwed up.
I think its the fuckin shoulderache. I really think so actually.
Need to set me straight.
Ima go whip smth up to drink. Actually..that may make me feel worse.
fuckin shoulderache.

Well... at least its temporary. I dunno. Shoulder aches last for bout 3 days? Since it was excercise related..

This post, is dedicated to possibly my only reader left, Remy =)
If you actually want a shoutout on my hopeless blog, just tag.

Since this post is dedicated to Remy, I shall deal with Remy-like things. None of your lovey-dovey animal talk, but rather i shall discuss incentive, since Remy is so into it.

I believe that many people out there, understand theory well enough. You learn how something works, giving you a speck of understanding on how life works. Congratulations! Depressingly, most of these people out there, who understand the theory well enough have little to no ability in applying it to everyday mechanisms.
I confess, i too am guilty of not applying my knowledge into the things i do (most commonly seen in me not applying my music theory into my music)
Therefore, i believe in constantly reminding myself and in this case my reader/s about the importance of actively applying what you know.

Many of you have heard of the bestseller, Freakonimics. Fewer of you have read the first chapter and even fewer of you, have completed the book.
If you have read the first chapter, you know that the authors discuss the importance of incentive in our lives, breaking it down, purely for the sake of convenience into economic,social and moral incentives, more often than not, overlapping each other.

Remember. This is a post dedicated to Remy in which i will discuss Remyish things, therefore, i shall take us through the process of questioning God. Perhaps Remy, this is why you should believe. Assuming God exists, surely he is an incomprehensible entity. You cannot understand god, nor what he does and although he is all mighty and all powerful, the vastness of his power is beyond imagination because surely we cannot imagine the universe and god is definitely bigger than that. Assuming we go to heaven or experience some sort of glorification in death, we are left with the choice of believing whether god exists or not.

When faced with such a situation, surely we should believe in God's existence. After all, it is a gain all or lose nothing situation. Assuming God truly exists, we gain everything. After all, isnt the attainment of anything and everything the ultimate incentive? However, if god doesn't exist, we lose nothing, therefore, the absence of any disincentive. With such a profit at the cost of merely believing, isnt the most rationale choice to believe? This is actually a simplified version of Pascal's wager in which i attempted to explain using incentives as a medium.

Notably, there are some flaws and loopholes in this theory, the most obvious being that the existence of god does not equate to eternal bliss after death. I believe that god is good (apply same theory here and you will understand why you should believe that god is good) but the theory crumbles if we do not experience heaven even if we believe.
Also, the theory only applies for believing in God as there is no disincentive in believing. However, if a religion requires practice, disincentives will automatically surface.

Interestingly enough, if we factor in the existence of hell, we have an even greater incentive in believing in God. After all, it becomes a gain everything, lose nothing or gain everything, lose everything scenario.


A little disorganized, but i'm sure you understand my train of thought. Feel free to point out more loopholes in this discussion. I believe that there are more loopholes which i have not covered.

You know whats funny? While this theory or rather Pascal's wager argues for belief in God, religious enthusiasts and fundumentalists discredit and denounce it. Why? They do not believe in a logical and rationale approach towards finding ones belief in god, but rather endorse only a spiritual search in realizing one's belief.
You know whats even funnier? If you delve a little into the metaphysical realm, you will find that these fundumentalists which denounce Pascal's Wager are actually employing Pascal's wager itself, except that this time, there is an added step. After realizing rationally that you should believe in God, they decide that its not enough to be rationale, thus they go spiritual. See the huge irony here?

nobody actually blogs now. I mean, everyone uses twitter (see the irony?)
I've always been a little critical on life.
Judgemental even when i deny it.
A little cynical but not like Remy (such an affectionate name).

Anyway, i wanted to blog about righteousness. I do believe that righteousness is misplaced sometimes. Some animal agency is sueing "I'm a celebrity get me out of here" for killing a rat. Said agency claimed that animals killed for consumption have to be done so in a way that pain is not inflicted on the animal.

Personally, i think they're just in it for the money.
I ridicule the statement of accusation put forth by the animal agency. I marvel at their ability to phrase the issue as an atrocity, the merciless killing and abuse of human superiority at the expense of a defenseless animal, man playing god by taking away life.

So, basically, all the agency is saying is that : we want your money and we are exploiting the support of mindless animal enthusiasts and legal procedure to get it. Oh, wait who cares about a rat.

On the other hand, Viewers! Are you disgusted? Oh no! The killing and torturing of an innocent animal for the sake of our entertainment? Surely we must be devils!
Hey, it brings in good revenue!
Cost of a rat : a cleaner kitchen
Cost of loss of viewership : a few million dollars?
Sounds reasonable doesn't it?

Seriously, in my opinion, "i'm a celebrity get me out of here" shouldn't have done such a thing. But maybe thats just because i'm pro animal and i have a hamster named snowball.
But then, even if they shouldn't have done such a thing, its seriously no big deal. The time and money spent filing a lawsuit could have been spent, i dunno, saving baby seals or smth. Which goes to show how phony these organizations are.
One may say. "Wait a minute Tim, they're doing this for publicity! more support = more funding and greater consciousness for their cause of saving animals! They're actually making a big hoo ha so that they can save even more animals"
Well of course doofus. Even if they're doing that robinhood steal from the rich to save the poor thing, the result of this would possibly be a series of "inflated lawsuits".
Even if the agency wins the lawsuit (which i srsly doubt they will) the future will be no better, agencies are gonna start sueing people for not cleaning up dog poop. For forgetting to feed the cat for an evening. For me putting my hamster on top of my head (violation of hamster chastity penal code page 407,chapter34,clause 39)

In the end, as much as we like to see ourselves as a superior race, we aren't. Yes i know theres christ and all that. But basically, we're like animals ourselves. Just really smart(lolsmart? you gotta be kidding me)animals. Talk about inflicting pain. I'm pretty sure that when a crocodile kills a gazelle, theres no pain involved. Same goes for the lioness which bites the neck. All very clean kills. Non brutal in nature.
You can say that those are a necessity, they are killing to survive.
But hey. So are we. I mean, i love animals. Probably more than you. But i eat chicken, i adore beef and fish tastes great. How would you like a hook sticking into the upper region of your mouth. I'm pretty sure thats painless. Gotta be real.

1 year ago, who would have ever thought that i,d be enlisting as a commando = /

Alright guys. i blog to inform. Ironically, nobody reads this anymore really. except annoyed lol. But i guess he/she has more or less got the idea to screw off.

Right! So i,m in Bishan now.
Pros, i,m really near food and loads of awesome stuff i.e 3 min walk to mrt.
Cons, i cant go to Cheryl's awesome place much anymore.

Cool thing is i have a phone in my room! how awesome is that!

with reference to the poster "annoyed" on my tagboard,
I am annoyed at you now! But nevertheless, i will remain civil.
Yes. We all know that i have my issues and i must admit. That post was a way for me to relieve my angst against someone who irritated me that day. Very much like how your reply is a way in which you relieve your annoyance towards me. Notice the 1 month break between my posts, it means that something has to upset me enough so that I actually bother getting my ass on the computer to post it online. Clearly, we're both caught in the same predicament of having to voice out our opinions regarding something.

While i do believe that as long as i,m not slandering the government or doing something like promoting racism, what goes on within my blog is very much my own business. Yes. you say that its the free internet. If i have issues, then close the tagboard or password my blog. But i still retain the ability to post since i,m the registered user. So, if it upsets you so much that i like to vent my frustrations on my blog, i suggest you not read it or else, you might be further insulted.

Even then, i would still like to let you know, what i think about your response. I think that your response is founded on thin air. You may think that everybody out there is smart in their own way. (Jeremias's opinion which i actually agree on.)
I hope you think that way because it reflects that you're nice. But reading the statements that you make, you end up making a total of 4 assertions.

Number 1, you say that "I think that i'm all that".
Number 2, you criticize my judgement of people's intelligence.
Number 3, you say that i am in no position to judge.
Number 4, you say that i am the one who is sub-par.

Bearing in mind that this is my blog and verbally and personally i may only mention engage in such conversations as i initially posted with my closest friends, you are really making empty statements.

I think that i'm all that. I do think that i am smart. But i'm definitely not all that. Academically wise i may be performing better than the average but there are clearly people ahead of me. To claim that you know what i'm thinking means that you are probably a super-genius to be able to read my mind. Remember that my initial post was an angry response to a nasty incident. I dont criticize people for no reason.

You criticize my judgement of people's intelligence. How would you know, if my judgement is wrong or right? How can i judge people? Well, i can! Thats the truth and so can anyone and everyone. My oh my i would sure like to live in a world where nobody judges anyone. That way i can walk around town in my underwear and nobody would shoot my glances and whisper to their friends. I can judge and so can you. You are denouncing me for making known my judgement. As far as i can tell, there are about a million other people out there who do the same thing. Go denounce them too. Of course, nobody is saying that my judgement is correct. But yes. I can make a judgement.

You say that I'm in no position to judge. What would render me in a position to judge then? Would i have to be president of the UN or something? The truth is that even kids in primary school judge. Why do people, during a neighbourhood soccer game pick the better players first? Because they are judging the abilities of the players and YES. They are in the position to judge. In fact, if i take what you just said, and turn it back on you, who gives you the position to judge what i blog? Because from the statement: " I dont think you have reached the position to be able to judge others so dont", you clearly are judging me too! I'm ok with you judging me. But its kinda ironic isn't it. What you say should apply for yourself too. Nevertheless, i hold by the fact that i AM in a position to judge althought my judgement wouldnt even influeunce an ant.

Lastly, you say that i'm sub-par. Par means a level considered to be an average. I think i may be wrong. Those people i mentioned earlier aren't sub-par. They are just, par. I make a correction here. You may feel,think,believe that i,m sub-par and i respect your viewpoint. I do believe, that the issue we're discussing now, is intelligence and that can be measured by IQ and EQ and maybe AQ. Now, i can't prove to you that i have some EQ and AQ but i do have various examples to show that my IQ isnt sub-par. Firstly, i have my grades in school. if a D is getting 50/100 and above for a particular subject, then a D should be the "par". Based on J1 promos, J2 Common Tests and Midyears, i average a D for GP, a C for Econs, a B for history and a C for literature and an A for math. You may think that my grades aren't awesome. I don't think that theyre good either. But nevertheless, for every subject i take, i appear to score a D or above. This does not mean that i am above the average, but it means that i am definitely not, "sub-par". Secondly, we have the NS pes allocation. I've been allocated to PES A which again means that based on the IQ test, i,m not sub-par (although it doesnt mean that i,m smart either). While i can't prove to you that i have a reaseonable EQ and AQ, i'd like to believe so. Thus, your assertion that i am sub-par has largely been falsified.

After typing all these, i'm no longer annoyed with you. I have let out my frustration. However, i'd like you to read this notorious blog, http://theladymelissa.blogspot.com/
Ignore the fact that it originated as a stupid xia-xue dawn yeo flame blog.
Also, i do not endorse the high-handedness of the author.
But i acknowledge that the writer makes some legitimate arguments that have a certain degree of sense. for example in this post. http://theladymelissa.blogspot.com/2008/08/village-graduates.html
I'm sorry if you're appalled by the writer's lack of euphemism.

I blog for a reason (be it legit or not) and i dont believe in password protection. I hope you can deal with that.

And thus forth, my blog shall now become a medium for the notattion of the thoughts of my soon to be mentally stimulated mind. prepare to be engaged.

yes. i,m actually active. Its so irritating.
How can there be so many simpletons in this world?

Probably, only less than 2%(made up statistic but good enough to prove my point)of the world are smart people.
I mean, in a honestly straightforward way, even the people in JC or uni arent "smart"
theyre just normal people.
The only reason why they are labelled as "smart" is because the rest of the world is too stupid.

Its rather frustrating from my point of view because there are just so many people who think at a ridiculously sub-par level down there.

Hoho i update for the sake of updating.
Honestly speaking, i dont relly see the need for a blog anymore.
I no longer feel the need to express my views to the world.

nevertheless, prelims are here = )
don't become mad. don't lose your cool. don't fall like the rest of them. become a winner. ok? = )

ok!

Omg.Omg.Omg.Omg.Omg.Omg.Omg.Omg.Omg.
I want to cry now.
I started 9am. Took approximately 1hour worth of break.
Its 6.46pm now and i've hit 3050 words on my Research paper.
omggggggg. I never thought i'd be able to go past 2000 and OMGggggggg i still have somemore stuff to write.
Its like, having a child and one day, your child stands up on his own 2 feet. omgGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I have become very much a disappointment lately.
I have decided. I'm going to become a 24 hour PRO.
PRO at everything.
Pro at studying, pro at gaming, pro at cooking, pro at Eating, Pro at sports, pro at sleeping.
A 24 hour PRO!